Worrying...

There are couple of things that i'm worrying right now...

1. Weight increase???

Aduiii...why always like diz?? whenever, i've loose some weight, it will increase again...how i wanna control my appetite...i like to eat so much...plus, whenever i was tension, i will eat...

where's my motivation?? waaaa....

2. Final exam for to-pup course...

1 week more to go b4 sitting for the final exam...even though only 3 papers, but to learn n study within 1 month, how i wanna catch up all the syllables, plus i juz got back from redang island...i have been absent for only 3 days...but bout 3-4 chapters that i have miss per subject...

hmmm...i dont know whether i can score all 3 papers or not...juz tawakkal jela...

3. Postgraduate (Master)

Alhamdulillah...i've received an offer letter from Universiti Malaya...ive succesfully get into UM & study as master student in Biomedical Engineering at UM...i only take the coursework program...however, the fees that i'm worrying about...its too expensive!!! Juz 3 semesters..but the fees for Biomed Eng. is over RM 18 000...

4. Biasiswa SLAB

To pay for the fees...i need to apply for scholarship...however, most of the companies or organizations only offer the scholarship for those who take master by research..the only scholarship that i hope for is SLAB..i wanna apply for SLAB unimap...however, i've been inform that i need to take the IELTS or TOEFL exam then.. i can apply...if i succeed, i will get the allowance 3-4 months after the application...IF I SUCCEED...huhuhu

Thus, i need to apply SLAB from another university...arghhh....so stressful..

5. The option that i choose..

For the past few months, there r many opinions either from my frends, lecturers & my parents...about my future after i graduate...whether i look for a job or further my study...thus, i have chose da 2nd option...but there r 2 options for master..whether by coursework or research...if coursework, the duration is short while research is depend on how u develop your project...thus, i choose coursework....but...now i'm confuse, did i do the right choice??

I really dont know...my parents suddenly ask me to take a job or try to do research...n there's 1 thing i terkilan, is that, my mom said to me, "dira x penah nk usaha...dira ni pemalas..."

How can she say that??? If i really pemalas, then i will never reach diz far... i know myself better, coz for me, i'm not good in research...how can people trying to lead my life...if i do something that i'm not good at.. juz to satisfy other people's need...

The point is...i'm confuse!!!! But right now, i juz do what i wanna do...as long as it is halal..haha

wherever i go, insyallah ada rezeki, dapat ar....juz tawakkal kepada Allah s.w.t....

There's more that i'm worrying about...tp bnde kecik jee...so malas nk pikir...=P